“Hi, how r u?”
“STRESSED”
That’s how 99% of my convos have been going recently. Everyone is busy, stressed and just generally having a gross time. Assignments, exams, tutors marking. It’s crunch time for everyone. Myself included, I guess.
I’m doing okay with my actual written assignments, I like to get them done ahead of time. But I haven’t been studying for my exams as much as I’d like.
But how do I relieve this stress?
By watching Gilmore Girls.
In my defence, I think the sheer amount of dysfunctional attachment dynamics in that series justifies it as psych study. I mean, watching the show is basically like seeing a live demonstration of psych concepts. I’ve been rewatching the series every Fall since…idk like highschool. And it’s cool to see how my perception of the characters change as I grow up.
Like when I was younger, I really thought Rory made the wrong decision by refusing to marry Logan.
As an adult? I just don’t think Logan was ready to tie the knot either. Man was just in Vegas ‘blowing off steam’ like…a month prior. And he really forced Rory into an ultimatum just as she graduated. In a season of her life where doors should have been opening, not closing. The real question is why didn’t he feel secure enough in their relationship to do long distance for a bit…or just a wait a little.
In some ways being a psych student may have dampened my enjoyment of the show. In other ways, it almost functions like a fictional case study. Looking at how parenting and early childhood experiences can later impact adult relationships…but through the medium of Netflix.
Anyway, my goal for the second half of this semester is to…focus on enjoying my studies. And enjoying this blog. I love this space, in many ways it feels a little like my brain externalised onto a website. And people are reading my stuff…but I can’t see them, so it doesn’t really feel real.
I think if someone managed to figure out who I was and came up to me one day like ‘hey is this your blog?’ I might freak out a little. But so far, it’s just my little baby blog and my space. And in many ways it really does feel like my child. Legit feel like I birthed it and went through a labour of love to get it up. I just need to make sure I don’t put pressure on myself, especially when I’m already busy. I don’t want to stop loving the blog.
Who knows what it will turn into in the next five years?
Maybe I’ll rebrand.
Maybe one day I’ll be writing as a registered psych or maybe I’ll go a different pathway.
All doors are open :))
